Entangled we are all, in one way or another in our hearts and in our souls. Our inner world is very complex and more is the world of ideas. There are too many downsides to our new age of awakening. There is a good reason why some people say that the Age of Aquarius is the age of deception. Not all is deception of course, but information might not always be what it seems.
This year I am faced with another set of lessons, related to my personal position in this vast incomprehensible Cosmos. I retrieved very vivid memories of what felt like heavenly moments with certain individuals that I have never met, but who seemed to have been relevant to my soul journey. Other encounters were far from sweet. In many ways, what once was, is no more, but maybe at a level many of these connections will always stay in my heart and my soul. Even the conflicting ones are being transformed at the most human of levels, with love. But life on Earth sometimes demands that we move along in a very different direction to what once was a heaven of sorts, if it really was, and to leave behind all forms of ancestral hells.
So is the same for all starseeds. Every individual who explores their inner world might come across surprising facts about their origins and those they crossed paths with, for one reason or another. However, when there is an evident lack of self love, many of these intriguing facts might be magnified, distorted, and misunderstood, as if they could provide a new layer of ideas and definitions. This is a personal observation from too many explicit testimonials seen over the years in the vastness of sites and social media and some of my own detours.
We step a little further away from who we are, with each new layer of information and distortions, when we do not deal with these facts with a more objective perspective. A most typical case is a form of interaction in some other timeline with a certain famous personality. We only get to see a tip of the iceberg of who these people were or are, and what we truly are at all levels. But the idea of maybe having been coated with the mantle of power and authority of someone else sounds appealing to our bruised, wounded self who is unacknowledged by ourselves and by others in several timelines. Evolution is, with all the honesty of my heart, brutal, with all and its natural laws and the synthetic paradigms.
The worst part might be that some of these interactions could have proven to be painful at some point, but such information is so out of reach. It is there, but our hearts and our minds are disconnected, so we prefer to stick to the eternal idea that we ourselves are that which we are not, or that we are important enough as to hold a form of power over another master being. Even worse, maybe we will spend the rest of our lives eternally worshiping the will of another and wanting to be in their image and likeness, sacrificing our own will and true joy.
If someone of authority tells you in the Now, “leave behind your ideals, and come to my temple and adore me…” very likely you will decline the offer and think to yourself that such person is nothing more than a narcissist. Yet, subconsciously, very likely we still hold on to that ancient program from a distant past, because we were like kids, and some patriarch or a matriarch told us that we had to follow their will for an eternity.
If someone tells you, “life is too crushing, so come to my temple and receive emotional and sexual healing…” very likely you will decline because you hold on to that which you love and you are not into the idea of sharing yourself to a stranger. Yet maybe, you were part of the masses who blindly believed that healing had to be this way, so you still carry attachments.
If someone tells you, “my nation must be perfected, and you are part of my nation, thus you must sacrifice yourself for it…” maybe you find the idea more appealing, or maybe not. It was not different from the past, and part of you is still looking for a home, built from an ideal of perfection.
And on and on it goes, the contamination at DNA level of what transpired in the past in the form of suppressive goals and idyllic paradigms that proved to fail many times. And the soul shards of another are still around you. So there you are, wanting to be adored by your masters, as much as you want to adore them. One thing is mutual respect, understanding and friendship. Another very different is oppressive ideals and relationships and codependency based on lack of self love.
Release your favorite masters and your tormentors with loving detachment. Release the idea of utopian realms and perfect societies. For a moment, forget that the world is shaped from the minds of the ancients and explore the jewels of your own creative potential.
Will you dare to change your programming a little further and love yourself just a little more and see yourself for your authenticity?
It is not easy, but yielding to the light of your own God-self, proves to be more appealing than any golden paradigm that might collapse, when there is a brick missing at the base of its structure.
Karla Damarelya is an artist, healer and researcher in the area of natural resource management.
She began her awakening process through the vivid experiences of feeling and knowing the interconnectedness of individuals at the soul level since 2006 and the depth of harmony and disharmony in human relationships. Since then, having studied some basic healing methods, psychology and some notions from social and natural sciences, and amassed knowledge through her own spiritual practices, she has gained a greater understanding of the fundamental contribution of these disciplines and their deficiencies in trying to address individual and collective problems if we only approach them through the lenses of one or a few of these disciplines.
Instead, through a combination of disciplines she finds the inspiration to write about some of our ancient and modern individual and collective dilemmas, problems and lessons.